I have something I need to get off my chest, but given that I don't have anyone in my life with whom to discuss such topics and with the regular threads being the way they are, I decided to post it here.
Oh, how I yearn for a fantasy based reality, a reality so fantastical, it's worth fantasizing about.
>How many of you here would actually pursue romantic relationship with anthro women if it were possible?
>How many of us would even be here if anthro women were a normal part of our shared meatspace to begin with, instead of refuge? Would they be as much beautiful as reality as they are as fantasy? Would we be normalfag riajuus?
I don't like human women. Never truly did. Sure, at some point the lust was there, but it never grew into a proper desire. I was never interested in them as people. I was never interested in other people at all to begin with, to be honest. ALways getting in the way of me spending my time and effort on things I found interesting at the moment. Never shutting the fuck up, never ceasing the constant yapping and nagging. I never truly felt loneliness, nor did I yearn for companionship.
>Then why is it that I gravitate towards anthro women?
Most of it is the attractiveness of their exteriors, the warmth and fluffiness of their animalistic vessels. The little quirks in their presented behavior, whether based on the species they're based on or whatever context they were put in. The unending fantasies, mostly centered either on casual interactions or satiating each other's desires, whether they be carnal, emotional or even simple validation. Tender moments in which we would feed off each other's warmth. Yet when I try to actually imagine a functional relationship between us as equal sovereign individuals, I'm drawing a blank. I was never in any sort of romantic relationship and I'm not about to start trying to get into one now. Am I even interested in anthro women beyond their delightfully plush exteriors? Would I be truly interested in building a relationship with one, were it possible to do so? Would I be able to be interested in her as a person?
I don't think I've ever truly felt love or passion beyond lust or mere shallow infatuation, nor do I think I may have ever been able to. No matter how my obsession with rekindling it, it's at best a faint ember, a faint glimmer of a dumpster fire my heart could have been, had I not allowed it to freeze into the broken shards it is now.
Similar with impregantion. For years I was disgusted by the mere idea of insemination, bringing another ugly human being into this ugly world, to join this buzzing, squirming mass of pulsating flesh known as humanity. Yet after contemplating engaging in the same process with an anthro female, I would not help bring ugliness into the world but beauty instead. Life could be a gift instead of a curse, if it's brought upon with proper care and resources and not just a result of some kind of unplanned mistake like I think I might have been.
Built upon a strong foundation of mutual trust and friendship, fostered with wisdom and care, a family may actually be something other (perhaps even more) than just a gathering of people you don't like (or rather don't even have any particular emotional bonds with), bound by the common thread of shared genetic material.
But enough ranting, I'm tired. Of this and that and so many other things.
May we all make it after yet another number change. Have fun in the new cycle.
>tldr: Anon finally realised he was a normalfag all along and is bummed that he didn't get a waifur along the way. Better luck next year!